What is this blog about ?
I said I wanted to change the world. But I was wrong. No one can changes not only their own world but also others’s world. Living the world is tough, so I live with words, persons, and love.
My dreams
My dream is “Be friends, Be happy. ” Becoming friends is wonderful and that leads you happiness. It is easy to have friends, if you have a pure mind.”There is various happiness For examples, they are happy by money, products, and status, they are happy by families, they are happy by jobs, they are happy by love, they are happy by dreams so on. My ideas of happiness are base on First,I can feel I’m happy.Second, I’m able to be grateful. Third I can behave selflessly.
Third time’s charm
I’ve been bipolar for 30 years. My life cannot tell without this disease. I was hospitalized abroad and domestic for ten times. I had two turning points. First, I was hospitalized by Osaka city in 2008. Two doctors decided my hospitalization. So I had no choice but I accepted I was mania. Since then I wasn’t hospitalized for 10 years. But second, on 8, August, 2020. I was hospitalized by Hiroshima city. After three months I was discharged and I immediately started a manual job. But I failed. I lost my confidence and dreams. I gave up my life and I decide to use a facility for mental disorders for good. Third, It hasn’t come yet, but if I am hospitalized next, I will choose I will be hospitalized by myself. I only know the hospitals which can accept me. But the hospitals take long me to recover daily lives.
Turning point
I was hospitalized for ten times, so I have no choice but I admit I have the mental disease, but I didn’t think I was going to apply a disable certificate. But during conversations with a friend I met in the hospital, I realized mental disabilities weren’t evil and I thought the society needed to support each other, so I applied it. First I thought I would have experiences many people sweared me, but I thought people accepted the card and I’m appreciated. I didn’t feel the society is a helping each other world until I received the certificates. I feel love. I determine one day I will become a person who can give love to others again.
Live with words
I want to live with words. Mr. Matsushita Kounosuke , founder of Panasonic, lived with Shojiki, an untrapped mind. Mr. Inamori Kazuo, founder of Kyocera, lived with Rita, selflessness behaviour. Everyone has their words. Right words lead you to the right paths. I’ve been following Mr. Inamori’s thoughts, so I thought my word would be selflessness behaviour, but I couldn’t become a person totally in that mind. Since I received the disable certificates two years ago I can feel appreciations everything, every second. So I decide my word is Thank you. I sat next to Judo Los Angeles Olympic gold medalist Mr. Yamashita Yasuhiro in the airplane 25 years ago. I asked him “what is his favorite word ?” He said Appreciation. I didn’t catch its meaning, then, but now I feel I’m understanding it a little. If I’ll keep saying “Thank you ” for 30 years and I hope I will get the black belt for appreciation.
Live with persons
I want to live with persons. But I haven’t asked persons for helps. I thought asking for helps meant weakness. In 2020 I was hospitalized by the municipality and I couldn’t do anything both physically and mentally. So I made a 180 turn. I decided to take maximum supports. Supports from social workers, Hiroshima city, a facility for mental disorders where I can spend a day, visiting nurses, a helper for houseworks, house accounting advice, a job for disorders. I’ve never taken these supports before. In 2022 I applied a disable certificate by myself. Now many persons have been helping me. What I learned from this experience is that the society is only functional by persons helping each other. Since no one is perfect, every person needs helps. I was totally wrong that asking helps meant weakness. My life has been changing for the better by a lot of helps.
Live with love
I want to live with love. I uploaded a video about love in YouTube, but I still don’t know what love is. I think the AI are coming to our society more and more and many things are being replaced by AI, but love is only given to the creatures. You cannot understand love by thinking. You only know it by experiences. The thing I think the most important is FEEL. It is essential to be able to feel even tiny love.
Summary
You need somethings to live this very tough world. I have words, persons, and love. Since I got a life in this world, I want to become happy. My happiness starts from the happiness in front me. If you can feel happy for other’s happiness, your happiness is infinite. I want to be like that. I want to hear your happiness. If you could comment, It wold be my pleasure.
Thank you.